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Its My birthday!

 Today I turn 34. And I can honestly remember being about 15-16 years old and with my friends and we thought people in their 30s were so old. I thought we were never going to get that old. I thought I was going to stay young and immature forever. But, here it is. Its a bittersweet feeling to have reached this age. I am older. I act immature more often than I act my actual age. Not one birthday in my 30s have bothered me. I was 6 months pregnant when I turned 30. I had much bigger things to worry about at that time than to worry about my age. Like making sure my ankles didn't swell and I always had plenty of lemons for my tea and dr peppers. But today, it feels like any other normal day to me. I'm not sure if its because my husband is out of town at work. Or because my son told me today it was his birthday too and I couldn't have a cake, but I could have a piece of his. I swear he takes everything i have and wants it all to himself :) Its 1:40 in the afternoon and I am blogging. I ran about 11 errands this morning and not one of them was to stop and pick me up a present. Husband said I couldn't pick my present out that he would have it under control when he got home next week. Maybe that's what is bothering me at this moment. I'm not in control of my day. Kids still have to make it to school and be picked up. Errands still need to be ran. Kids have to be picked up from school. (believe me i checked, they wont let them stay there till June 1st) and soccer practice has to be attended too. I will have a day off when the hubby gets home. I think that's what he meant when he said he would have it all under control. ( i may have to leave post it notes all over the house in case i decide to sleep in on a random Friday!)

But, in this moment I feel that I do have it all under control. I have good health, a roof over my head, a car to get me to and from, food for whenever I am hungry, and 3 very healthy kids to get to school everyday. There isn't one day that goes by that I am not very thankful for another day to see my son turn into such an independent little man. To give my 2 step-daughters the love and care they actually need. To be the best wife I can be to the most wonderful husband I could ask for. To be a strong older sister to my little sister and hope that she knows I will always be here for her. To be a good daughter to my mom and an understanding grand-daughter to my grandma. To that I am blessed to have this birthday and cant wait for many more!

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